Story Of My Life

haha syping my niggas(:
austin and codyy!

this shit craaayy<3

ahhh, wth? wth should i do! D: im so confused… between bestfriends and boyfriends and school, and homework, and a social life, and of course..being clutzy.. fracturing your knee for the 2nd time. almost tore the acl. breaking yout middle finger, and alwayts falling. your boyfriend taking things farrrr.. and your bestfriend and boyfriend not getting along. getting ditched by your best friend for her boyfriend? like GAWD! our lives are fuckin’ dramatic! D: i cant do this aanymore! helppp pleaseee. D:

Last night was amazing<3 even though we lost:(
i missed the beau all night but i still had fun with the people i was with.
shelby, shelby, tara, emily, brayden, brenden, kenxie, carter, alexis, brooke, jaiden, courtney, zach, holly, abbey, daryl, alyssa, tyler, eric, momma, and dad. but i lost my bracelet:( and i got two breast cancer tattood.(: and we had a breast cancer sign on the ball, and the boys had pink ducktape on their shoes:p we were playin for a cure(:
and today going to my cousins 16th bddaaayy.(: with Dani(:
sadly..i love the cold, but it made me sick :( #ineedawearajacket #lessonlearned

gaaawd. how does a perfect day.. go from being perfect to screwed up. the person i care the most about wants to hang out friday. and we had plans to..but ya know… i cant now.. this other person wouldnt even talk to me all day. im stuck home in bed in pain. and its my moms last night here for awhile and i cant even see her. but at least i get my best friend who could never be replaced ever…coming over tomorrow. but i guess the injuries could be worse„and luckily their not. and i still cant feel my butt and below thanks to the morphine. im on crap loads of medication.. and they are very heavy pain pills.. so when i take them.. im basically high.. im 13 and yet im on meds for adults who can handle the drugs. gawd. i hate thiss. someone text me.

SCHOOL-
new guy= hot, everyone like him=drama.
old friends=rumors, secrets being told=drama.
drama=more drama!
^^truth behold of school.
well the new guy moved here from Beecher City, and of course has to be hot. all the girls like him. Well he dates this weird chick thats a goody two shoe and no one expected him to date her. well then he practically cheated on her and everyone told her. She asked me annd i told her my opionion and of course she went off and told him. well she didnt tell him the whole story.. and now one of the guys that has been my bff since i was 2, and one of the guys i like, and one of them i care about…has to hate me now. FML. so we’re working on that now. Well the guy my bff liked that liked her..found out about the 2yr probation we’re all on..and he now one date her and is spreding it around! that wasnt his business and of course it jus happens to be the bad part of it. Damn people, find out the damn truth before spreding it. so now our new principals, and everyone in the school knows. Well the drama from last year is now getting worse.. made peace with some, others hasnt happend. and i wish my friends would shut their damn mouths about “Pickle Butt” like what has she done to you! nothing! i mean shes deff never done anything to me and ive never done anything to her, so i have no reason too hate her other than how she treats my friends. other than that. Ive had the BEST WEEKEENNDDD EEVVVEEERRR!!! i stayed with Jaiden friday and she stayed with me Saturday&Sunday(: we went to the Casey fair and met SHOE DUDE!(: hes soo hot(: and now my bff(: we text 24/7(: lolol. well we also skyped the other 2 guys i like.. JAKE&ERIC(: and we skyped Cody, and we skyped Konnor, Avery, Karson, Eli, &&Tyler. lol(: it was amazing!! and then Monday.. i had a metal bar fall on my head.. bump.. and so i didnt go to school today and had a huge headache and was dizzy. thank u bar..NOT! && of course today has to be the 2 month aniversery of my best friend„ who held me at birth.. the guy who brightens up the mood, the guy yyou can never stay mad att, the guy you can trust with anything, MY BEST FRIEND..it the 2month aniversery of him being dead.. and it 4 days itll be his 17th birthday. LOVE & MISS YOU MASON. Rip bud, forever young. you too Chance, Jesse, Palmer, Gma Barrish, and Aunt Angie. love you all. see you some day. Its never goodbye. for now ill i have to go on. with this pain, and never talking to you guys again till the day i. but i know your here by my side helping me along the way(: although Fuck this damn town. its a curse, everyone we love dieing all in one month. what did we do? well anyway, Hope Ryan can forgive me.. love you guys and Well texting my crushes..Drew, Jake, and Eric = Happines.. (: hope to be texting Ryan soon. tata for now(:

Last night was one of the best nights ever in a long time. i forgot all about him! i gotta hang with my best friends see the other guy i like, and hang with a bunch of cowboys<3 
I know you prob don’t wanna hear my life last night„ but im going to tell it anyway.. sorry if you dont like it.
for starters.. i went to cheer practice aand the little 6th graders were scrimaging Vandallia. and i got outta practice at 6. so i could go to the Fair&Rodeo. well these guys were talking to me.. they were cute..well then they told me theyd be out at the gates waiting for me. so i got changed and went and hung with them..then before i left they put my numbers in my phone and told me that they wernt going back to the game bc the only pretty girl had left.. i was like who? and they said me<3 i thought it was sweet. so then we got to the fairgrounds. and me and my friends Abbey&Tiara&Holly got our armbands. rode HighRoller and then went to the rodeo. i had a nice converstation with these cute cowboys that sat behind us, (Glad Mike is doing good) a horse fell on bareback rider Mike S. he was down for 5 then they got him on the strectcher and was down for another 10. but he finally got up and is doing good now! after the rodeo we went out and rode rides. saw my bffs Jake and Drew and their friend Avery.. got lots of huggss from Jake<3. well i let them hold my phone wile i went on super shot! and they took pics…and set one as my background.. <3 hahaha then, these cowboys walked over to us and started talking to us, after jake and them left..and were like is he your bf? i was like no…and then it was a long convo. but they rode rides with us, got our numbers and we got theirs„ except tiara cause shes got a bf.. but to end the night on a high no beat the one i ended up liking rode rides with me, held mah hand, gave me hugs, and gave me his sweatshirt cause it was cold and he had a long sleeve shirt and i had a short sleeve shirt<3 and then he was warming me up, and then i got a goodnight kiss! but i feel really bad…bc im usually not like that like being single and acting like that..but i guess i got caught up in the moment with a cowboys<3 but no were not dating, && going to hang with Holly & the cowboys tonight and maybe adrianne and maybe tiara.
Friends from last night that i talked to/hung out with/ rode rides with: Allie, Holly, Tiara, Abbey, Jake, Drew, Avery, Sabrina, Jade, Courtney, Kaitlyn, Justin, Liz, Aiden, Anthony, Alyssa, Wayde, Brandon, COWBOYS(too many to list), Ashtin, Zoe, Nathan, Angela, and more!(:
CANT WAIT FOR TONIGHT!!!<33333

im tired of being someone im not.. im not this girl that gets bad grades cusses, listens to rap and all that crap. im a girl who makes honor roll every quarter, listens to country, doesnt cuss..my home rooots is the country.

my mom got remarried 5 years ago and my home roots and everything started to change about me when we moved and i got new friends.

& i dont like it. im done trying to please everybody. yes. i love my friends.. but im done changing for them. & im done being embarrresed of loving God&being a church go-er.

REAL ME: loves country music, loves cowboy boots, loves tractors. loves farming, loves mudding, loves the country, loves horses, loves racing, loves football, loves baseball, loves basketballl, fits in with the guys.. loves sitting at home dressed in baggy comfortable clothes. loves swimmming in ponds/lakes/rivers/creeks. loves getting dirty and playing in the mudd. doesn’t cuss. loves God. doesnt cake on makeup, knew how to drive a fourwheeler at age 2. rode bareback at age 5, saddled horses at age 4, doesnt care what her hair looks like. only watches CMT, and Syfy, and disney and abc family, and teen nick. never argues with her parents, wasnt afraid to be herself around people, was friends with people who liked her for her. knows every word to every country song, didnt care about anything, and didnt care what people thought about me. I’M going to go back to my old life, but keep all my friends, and im gonna stop with my bad habbits. and so on. but i think y’all understand. BE YOURSELF, NOT WHAT PEOPLE WANT YOU TO BE. PEOPLE WILL TRY TO MAKE YOU AND BREAK YOU, BUT STAND TALL&STAY STRONG, DONT LET THEM CHANGE YOU. YOUR BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT PEOPLE SAY OR THINK ABOUT YOU. THEY JUST SAY IT BECAUSE THEIR JEALOUS OF YOUR LIFE AND WANT TO BE LIKE YOUU, AND THEY KNOW YOUR ABOVE THEM. AND THEY CAN’T HANDLE THAT.(:

I still think of the times, the feelin’s, our first kiss, and that star…i still mean everythin’ i said…even if you dont. All of my best times are with you, &it will be tough to beat. I will miss the way things were…but not enough to try and get them back.<3